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My name is Irene.
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- Learn tones of photography
- Update my ipod/get itouch
- Find someone
- Return books and magazines
- Clear junk
No Name. (Thursday, May 8, 2008)
I'll upload her photo soon.
My hamster,the white one,
with a adorable pink nose,
died yesterday. She was born
defective, according to the
doctor, and was always very
skinny. Though, now, i miss
her, the way she plays on
the monkey bar, the way
she enjoys her own life,
though she was only
given a simple and small cage.
I admire her, for a courage,
and peseverance, and strong will,
that had enabled her to live 6 months.
She had either kidney or liver
problems when she was born last
year november, due to some
inheritance problems. 2 days
before her death, she had an
eye infection. And i brought her
to the clinic, and hence got to know her
situation.
The doctor said she might not pull
through, but inscripted some
medication for me to give her,
which included critical care food,
which were meant to be force-feeded,
eyedrops, vitamins, anitibiotics oral care,
which total, cost me 75 dollars.
Before i left, the vet told me she
would be already very lucky to live
for 1 year, and wished me good luck before i
left.
Immediately when i reached home, put her gently
down, and gave her beddings. She seemed
to be greatly in pain. I force-fed
her at 9pm, and she seemed to be swallowing
the herbivore solution. I was relieved.
That night, i prayed for her, wishing
God can help her pull through, and she will
continue living for at least 4 months more.
And i went to sleep, with a heavy heart.
The next morning.Before i went to school.
I checked on her.
I rubbed my eyes, and saw again.
Her heart was not beating. I felt mine
stop too. My heart was really, really,
pain. I began sobbing.
And i ran to the toilet and let everything out.
And i wanted to stop. And i almost did.
But the moment i left the toilet. It started again.
And my eyes are wet now.
She died. She really died.
My mum saw me, and chose that
she fetch me to school instead, cos i couldnt
possibly cry my pain out in the bus.
I cried andd cried. Why did she died so suddenly.
Why must it be today. Why must she
die without seeing her last. Why
can't i share some of her physical pain too.
Why must she be defective.
Why.... I kept crying.
It's my fault. My fault.
I tried to stopped when i reached school.
And i did. But my heart was crying.
And it didn't stopped.
During PE, i didnt bring my attire.
Cher criticised me, jq and jac abit.
I didn't care.
I lied down on the grass, with wenxi.
i stared at the sky.
I cried.
I just buried her.
My memories. My heart
is really aching.
rip.
please.
The part where her kidney
was, was black. And some
brownish liquid was stained
on the tissue paper i used
to wrap her.
My hamster,the white one,
with a adorable pink nose,
died yesterday. She was born
defective, according to the
doctor, and was always very
skinny. Though, now, i miss
her, the way she plays on
the monkey bar, the way
she enjoys her own life,
though she was only
given a simple and small cage.
I admire her, for a courage,
and peseverance, and strong will,
that had enabled her to live 6 months.
She had either kidney or liver
problems when she was born last
year november, due to some
inheritance problems. 2 days
before her death, she had an
eye infection. And i brought her
to the clinic, and hence got to know her
situation.
The doctor said she might not pull
through, but inscripted some
medication for me to give her,
which included critical care food,
which were meant to be force-feeded,
eyedrops, vitamins, anitibiotics oral care,
which total, cost me 75 dollars.
Before i left, the vet told me she
would be already very lucky to live
for 1 year, and wished me good luck before i
left.
Immediately when i reached home, put her gently
down, and gave her beddings. She seemed
to be greatly in pain. I force-fed
her at 9pm, and she seemed to be swallowing
the herbivore solution. I was relieved.
That night, i prayed for her, wishing
God can help her pull through, and she will
continue living for at least 4 months more.
And i went to sleep, with a heavy heart.
The next morning.Before i went to school.
I checked on her.
I rubbed my eyes, and saw again.
Her heart was not beating. I felt mine
stop too. My heart was really, really,
pain. I began sobbing.
And i ran to the toilet and let everything out.
And i wanted to stop. And i almost did.
But the moment i left the toilet. It started again.
And my eyes are wet now.
She died. She really died.
My mum saw me, and chose that
she fetch me to school instead, cos i couldnt
possibly cry my pain out in the bus.
I cried andd cried. Why did she died so suddenly.
Why must it be today. Why must she
die without seeing her last. Why
can't i share some of her physical pain too.
Why must she be defective.
Why.... I kept crying.
It's my fault. My fault.
I tried to stopped when i reached school.
And i did. But my heart was crying.
And it didn't stopped.
During PE, i didnt bring my attire.
Cher criticised me, jq and jac abit.
I didn't care.
I lied down on the grass, with wenxi.
i stared at the sky.
I cried.
I just buried her.
My memories. My heart
is really aching.
rip.
please.
The part where her kidney
was, was black. And some
brownish liquid was stained
on the tissue paper i used
to wrap her.
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