week 4 is basically guides and guides haha. stc (skills training camp) prep on monday, and we revealed the roles to the y3s, yep shouldn't say anything more. but i have alot of things unsaid to my y3s... haha. they are a complicated bunch but i love all of them, and idk why i can always shed tears for them -.- i think thrice already.

anyway stc was one of my most memorable camps i've ever had really. i think it was more meaningful than atc in a way, cos i finally had a chance to lead my patrol in camp d and oc that kinda thing! personally, i felt that i was abit harsh on them haha, keep screaming here and there with my sexy coarse voice but really glad they cooperated so well, and honestly, i felt that we really rocked camp d and oc, everything was done within time limit and yeah, i had fun! but bad thing was the sun was really blazing, everyone got burnt, sad to say i'm dark again ):

after that was mystery games planned by the committee, and it was epic funny with p9 hahahaha, we staged retarded performances and sang a cute last-minute-created song, that got us really laughing. hope the y1s adapt to our craziness soon ^^

anw before i forget, THE F21 FLAGSHIP STORE HAS OPENED IN ORCHARD XCHANGE OMG must go!!

night games at night was imho, quite unscary and "fail"... hahah.... yeah.... abit sorry for that. anyway we had night evacuation for once, and i didn't really know how the juniors performed, but i guess chai ning's speech says everything.

at night, the 42nd batch slept under the stars at the grandstand with no blankets whatsoever, and we just flew to slumberland within seconds. it was soooooooooooo memorable. #dreamcometrue.

next day, pdp. when we sang candles, started crying... then after that it wasn't that bad haha. but i love you p9 sparrow, p5 kingfisher!

and here's my deep-felt reflections, and not all of you may have known this before, but here goes...

so stc marks the end of my journey in the dhs company. it was arduous, and uneventful sometimes, and i was really harbouring a negative attitude at the beginning of guides. in the past, when the seniors really scream at us for not being in standard pumping position, for not persevering, i was always thinking why can't they praise us for once, instead of putting us down when i've tried my best. yep i blogged about my unhappiness, which was pretty immature of me haha, and the seniors came one by one to comment on it on my tagboard. i remember feeling pretty embarassed and yeah, i changed my bloglink and kept mum about guides ever since.

honestly, that incident didn't really changed my mindset, afterall what could a few comments on a tagboard do to influence my thinking? i became a very quiet, reserved person who has few comments. i did what i was supposed to, did what i could, followed those in my batch who showed the initiative, and i never had the passion. i was just a soul-less guide doing stuff haha. however if not for the y3s in my p5kf patrol, i would have given up entirely on guides. they were the reason i kept coming back, and they inspired me to hang in there, and not give up easily which equals to admitting defeat.

slowly but surely, i progressed. i learnt from my amazing seniors, zhen mei, xinyi, peishan, hillary, usan, shujun. they kept a positive attitude no matter what, and our PL usan was really one of the most seh guide around. haha my seniors were a really fun bunch, and they lead us, showed us the way to do things, and the meaning of doing things with your patrol mates, which is an entirely different experience. from then on i wasn't alone anymore, i was WITH my patrol. i felt finally a part of kingfisher. it was so much easier.

after that, michelle, xintian, li yee and sherlyn took over and we became seniors also, which really got me bonded more to guides as now i've a duty which is to train our juniors and make sure they are pro enough to be in p5 kf hahaha. i remembered the thing anyi and i said to the y1s when they joined our patrol is "welcome to the best patrol in dhscoy" hahaha, janelle still remembers it. and then we continued to create memories and legacies, building our kitchen-table-turned-sushi-table, tying basha 1min per person, having ojs, making lecture books, patrol outings...

so time flew by, it was pdp and then it was our turn to set new directions and make necessary changes to the company. the news of everyone being reshuffled into new patrols really brought great sorrow. we thought we could continue our p5kf legacy. yet, anyi, yajun and myself were appointed the new PLs of new patrols, and alisa the PS of another new patrol. there were 10 new patrols and all of us are split into different ones. initially i wasn't very confident at all in raising a new patrol. everything has to be started from scratch. we had no xdx, and we hardly knew each other. but afterall, the seniors believed in me enough to gave me this position... so i guess everything went well after that, despite my negligence sometimes and mistakes.

the leadership journey was hectic but fun, and really really meaningful. we had COH, and new activities, initiatives were brought up, the guides system was changed, we provided feedback, argued for what's best for the company, had some laughter during our meetings, and fondly recalling how we were as juniors while complaining about how some juniors don't meet our expectations.

i got to know p9 better and realize i actually have lovely juniors, kelly, annie, emily, yanshan, gigi, yeokmin, dana, amelia, yapqi, chinyee, zephania. i would never forget how all of you exacted revenge on me on april fools day after shihming and i tricked yall! hahaha. really thanks alot. i couldn't have done this without all of your hard work and efforts, and also my PS and P3 shihming and enci, the best jokers around. (i was really influenced)

many thanks to p5 kf juniors as well, shuwen, janelle, guojun, krystal, rochelle, elizabeth, nathania, joey. all of you are a fun bunch to be with and wacky sometimes as well. wish yall all the best in guiding! (:

yeap so i guess that's it. i would never ever want to forget my guiding journey. and i really believe i'm leaving p9 into good hands.

to all y3s, hopefully when it's your turn to pass the baton on, you would share the same feeling of pride and sense of achievement. do your best. remember, the more effort you put in, the harder it is to let go!