it's just today. (Friday, March 23, 2012)
a little update on my agony.
(everyone has their own problems and if some problems seem superficial to you, don't judge because you are not in the person's shoes.)
if I was still in y4 I would have been asleep as this time lol. But the older you are the more troubles you get.
Ah I have realized that with the coming of age, comes the unavoidable increase in the number of choices you have to make in life. The most terrifying part of this is the often irreversible condition of such choices. And the inevitable responsibility you have to bear, which sometimes might be too much to handle.
This year, I chose French over the common humans, econs or geog. I am dealing with the consequence of being one of the 11 h2 students in the entire country to take this subject. I am under the constant pressure to perform beyond a certain acceptable standard given that the majority in my class are raffles students and an acceptable mark to me is just, way incomparable to the kind of marks they are getting. After each French lesson, my ego just gets bruised lol. It's too late for regrets duh, but yknow in a way or another I am experiencing this unfamiliar feeling that I am just not good enough. And that I shouldn't have overestimated my ability to take such a foreign subject.
I took up SIMC, WSC, and soon enough House Comm, and this is in addition to ISAC and Med Soc, and studies. And peer tutoring. (and sleep and social life and family time and religious commitments) Need to find an equilibrium soon. Guess this is what most of us JC students are facing right now eh. let's try our best to pull through this.